[ she's not. weren't they just saying that they weren't, a few days ago, a few sentences ago? but she's getting wound up now, and it takes her a moment to read through what he's saying and read through it again before she lets herself answer.

she's not that person. she doesn't want to be. ]

I don't want to risk it coming from Lyall. If I don't have it now.

Though that might be a good means of control. Making sure I have it.