[ rational thought and further implication have dissolved into incoherency for now- this is enough to deal with, years of stoicism and delayed grieving thrown away in a single moment.
there's no one to hold back for.
the phone goes off again, but only a slight vibration heralds it now, unable to make itself heard above her wailing. as his hand settles over her back, she shifts, arms finding their way around him, clasping him to her.
it slows. flushed and exhausted, she settles, all the tension of crying gone out of her. her hands slip down his back to his waist, then slowly pull back to her face to wipe at it. a sniff, a cough. a moment of silence. a groan. ]
I have to go down. Don't I.
[ her voice is rough and she coughs again. her hands drop into her lap and she breathes, her head resting still against his shoulder.
he's next, she thinks.
she'll be alone without him.
all those echoed memories that had nothing to do with her now have her one stop closer to that thing. she shudders without saying anything more. ]
no subject
there's no one to hold back for.
the phone goes off again, but only a slight vibration heralds it now, unable to make itself heard above her wailing. as his hand settles over her back, she shifts, arms finding their way around him, clasping him to her.
it slows. flushed and exhausted, she settles, all the tension of crying gone out of her. her hands slip down his back to his waist, then slowly pull back to her face to wipe at it. a sniff, a cough. a moment of silence. a groan. ]
I have to go down. Don't I.
[ her voice is rough and she coughs again. her hands drop into her lap and she breathes, her head resting still against his shoulder.
he's next, she thinks.
she'll be alone without him.
all those echoed memories that had nothing to do with her now have her one stop closer to that thing. she shudders without saying anything more. ]